Monday, November 29, 2004
NOTTING MORE.....NOTTING LESS
standing here alone in the midst of night
nowhere to turn to nowhere to reach to
when the surrounding begins to turn its back on me
i look at the moonlight that lighten me
reaching for the stars that i assume could help me
never knew that the light are only impermanent
the only eternity light that now had darken
leave me down in the darkness of loneliness
alone here in the state of vertigo
for what i done is only for your own happiness
for what i do is for your own pleasure
i sick for what u did
making me thinking that you are more than just a moon
when you are nothing more than a ray of emptiness
nothing to do today. sigh..this is not the month of happiness. Got problem from internal and external. I had a lot of great story to post it on but the grief of sadness just destroy the great moment. Can't think properly. God help me!!!!!
# posted by izamneo : 11/29/2004 02:53:00 AM
Friday, November 26, 2004
i saw a flower in a field
from a seed growing up slowly
looking up facing the sun
stretching reaching for the one light
the flower never move right nor left
it loyalty to the sun can never be question
moving up, still the ground it never forgets
it roots still reaches down
grabbing the soil that has cared for him all along
the soil that watch and cared him from the very seed
thats is the ultimate happiness
but
why must the cloud cover the light
has the sun forgets the flower?
slowly
the ray dissappear little by little
the one's mighty flower begin to weaken
ahh...the drop of rain started to reach the ground
from a single drop turned to heavy
the soil begin to loosen it grip to the root
now
where can the flower turn to?
are both sun and soil forget the flower?
letting it to wash away by the water
alone and lonely without anyone to care
or is it a part of every person's life?
we can never tell until its reaches us......
hmm...hehehehe. just some crap i made up. for the fun of it. My holiday just started. i had nothing to do thou....sigh. wish i could turn back the time. Type something more if i have any ideas
# posted by izamneo : 11/26/2004 04:13:00 AM
Thursday, November 18, 2004
In life it self has its own uncertainty. Sometime in life you feel that your are nothing anymore. You are useless.. . You are disposable. People came to you only when they need something. Did they come to you because of you or did they come to you because of what you have?. Now how would you feel if that came from someone that had been close to you for a long time. it hurts isn't it??. It hurts very much.... You did a lot for them yet you get nothing in return.
What would you do if you are in that position?. Your answer may be "FUCKED THEM". Well its not that easy. Its hard really. sometimes i feel lonely..............................................
What would you do if you are in that position?. Your answer may be "FUCKED THEM". Well its not that easy. Its hard really. sometimes i feel lonely..............................................
# posted by izamneo : 11/18/2004 01:37:00 AM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
hey there's a correction that i have to make. I got mix up with the song that i wanted to post. hahaha. i was supposed to post this song called "Boulevard of broken dreams" by Greenday. thats the one that resembles me right now. sorry guys. By the way that song called cathedral does contain some religious stuff but if u see it in a different way, i mean listen to the lyric n the music very deeply, it actually ain't religous, its more of a metaphor. well thats what i feel. n way, heres the lyric for Boulevard of broken dreams. try download it.
Boulevard of broken dreams
by Greenday
I walk a lonely road,
the only one i have ever known,
dont know where it goes,
but its home to me,
i walk alone
I walk this empty street,
on the boulevard of broken dreams,
Where the city sleeps,
and i'm the only one,
and i walk alone,
I walk alone,
i walk aloneI walk alone,
i walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me,
My shallow heart's the only one thing that's beating,
Sometimes i wish someone out there will find me,
Till then i walk alone,
I'm walking down the line,
That divides me somewhere in my mind,
On the border line,
Of the edge and where i walk alone,
Read between the lines,
What's fucked up and everything's alright,
Check my vital signs,
And know i'm still alive,
And i walk alone.
I walk alone,
i walk alone,
I walk alone,
i walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me,
My shallow heart's the only thing thats beating,
Sometimes i wish someone out there will find me,
Til then i walk alone.
I walk alone,
i walk a...
I walk this empty street,
On the boulevard of broken dreams,
Where the city sleeps,
And i'm the only one and i walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me,
My shallow heart's the only thing thats beating,
Sometimes i wish someone out there will find me,
Til then i walk away.
Boulevard of broken dreams
by Greenday
I walk a lonely road,
the only one i have ever known,
dont know where it goes,
but its home to me,
i walk alone
I walk this empty street,
on the boulevard of broken dreams,
Where the city sleeps,
and i'm the only one,
and i walk alone,
I walk alone,
i walk aloneI walk alone,
i walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me,
My shallow heart's the only one thing that's beating,
Sometimes i wish someone out there will find me,
Till then i walk alone,
I'm walking down the line,
That divides me somewhere in my mind,
On the border line,
Of the edge and where i walk alone,
Read between the lines,
What's fucked up and everything's alright,
Check my vital signs,
And know i'm still alive,
And i walk alone.
I walk alone,
i walk alone,
I walk alone,
i walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me,
My shallow heart's the only thing thats beating,
Sometimes i wish someone out there will find me,
Til then i walk alone.
I walk alone,
i walk a...
I walk this empty street,
On the boulevard of broken dreams,
Where the city sleeps,
And i'm the only one and i walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me,
My shallow heart's the only thing thats beating,
Sometimes i wish someone out there will find me,
Til then i walk away.
# posted by izamneo : 11/09/2004 02:55:00 AM
Saturday, November 06, 2004
HmMM....
I can't sleep, another 8 hours till my labtest..... sigh. need to get some sleep. any suggestion???.
Being thinking a lot for the pass few weeks. hmmm this is what we call life. You can see happy faces, yet u never know the feeling deep inside them.
ohh i been listening to this song, not sure whether it is new or old. the name of the band is " Jump little children" and the tittle of the song is "chathedral". sounds a little religious but if you listen to the lyric it has nothing to do with religion or what so ever. The music and lyric match almost 80% of what i'm feeling right now...
Cathedrals
by Jump Little Children
In the shadows of tall buildings
by Jump Little Children
In the shadows of tall buildings
Of fallen angels on the ceilings
Oily feathers in bronze and concrete
Faded colors, peices left incomplete
The line moves slowly past the electric
Fence across the borders between
Continents
In the cathedrals of new york and
Rome there is a feeling that you should
Just go home and spend a lifetime
Finding out just where that is
In the shadows of tall buildings the
Architecture is slowly peeling marble
Statues and glass dividers someone
is watching all of the outsiders the line
Moves slowly through the numbered
Gate past the mosaic of the head of
State
In the cathedrals of new york and
Rome there is a feeling that you should
Just go home and spend a lifetime
Finding out just where that is
In the shadows of tall buildings of
Open arches endlessly kneeling sonic
Landscapes echoing vistas someone
is listening from a safe distance the
Line moves slowly into a fading light a
Final moment in the dead of night
In the cathedrals of new york and
Rome there is a feeling that you should
Just go home and spend a lifetime
Finding out just where that is
# posted by izamneo : 11/06/2004 02:26:00 AM
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